New Floors.

Finally today we are getting the new floor for the kitchen placed. I am so excited to get my house completly back together. We have been in the middle of a remodel for a while and I ready to be done. Plus now I have to get everything ready for my sisters party Saturday here at my house. I will be sure to post pic of that when I get them. Kaiden and I are playing this moring and I am loving it so much.... Well I will chat later.

Lanishas Trip

Okay so after 9 mo. of planning we finally go to tell Lanisha where we were taking her for her surprise bach. party. Katie C. Kara N. Myself and Lanisha all went to Cancun for 5 days and had a wonderful time. Here are a few pic but there are a lot more I will have to share when I can show you the photo's there are too many to try and download them all on here.

Placing Travis' Roadside Memorial.

Yesterday we went for a run for Travis. We had 30 rigs with at least 2-5 people in each rig. We all met at Tiger Mart at 9 am and then headed out to the Ochoco mountains. We went to the place where Travis' accident happened and put up one of the most impressive roadside memorials I have ever seen. The amount of people there and the support that was showed through out the day is undescribeable. Here are a few pic.

Our Personal Tribute to Travis

Okay so I know that tattoo's are not loved by everyone but we thought that it was only right that we had something to always remember our brother. So Josh and I went and had tattoo's with Travis' name on them. Tami (Josh's mom did also) they are all individule but the same. We all agreed that the Chevy Bow Tie was a must but we were able to choose how, where, and color all individule. Well these were taken they day they were done in the studio so they look a little rough but you should see them now! So here are some photos.

Mine:

Josh's:

Tami's:

A Beautiful Service

Today we held Travis's memorial service at the Living Hope Church. We had a wonderful service if that is possible; for such a not good day. We were able to have all of Travis stuff at the front of the church. His favortie rifle, his new bow, his photo albums, his college shirt, his snow board, his pheasant, his antelope hide, lots of flowers, picutres of Trav fishing and just one of him. There was also his knee board, his first buck, his favorite hat and other little things that made us all think of him. There was sitting for three hundred and eighty people and there was no more sitting and people standing. The family was overwhelmed by how many people showed up to show their support and love for my brother in law. I hope that I can find pictures of today to post for you all to see.

My Heart is Acheing.

For those of you who have not heard yet; our family has been going through one of the worst times of our lives. My brother in law Travis J. Tolman was killed in a fourwheeler accident on Friday night 8/22/08. He was riding up on trout creek in the moutains with a group of his friends. I have been on the medical side of these family tragedys and we have been surrounded her in Jefferson County lately and I was sad and my thoughts were with these families; but until it happens to you there is no way to even say that you understand. I don't understand why these things happen and they always seem to happen to the people who have such a great future. Travis was that brother in law that from day one made me feel like family. He was at my house almost everyday and if he was not there Josh or I would call and ask what he was doing. He was my husband's best friend, they talked everyday, planned weekends together and all vacations were to include each other. Now we are lost. We have been surrounded by friends and family which has made this whole thing so much easier. When we are alone it is when the tears start to rush and the thoughts become overwhelming. My daughter still talkes about him everyday and she seems to be the only one who gets it. She tells me not to cry because uncle is happy in heaven and he is with Jesus. She looks up in the sky and says.."I want to talk to uncle" and then tells him little random things that are so cute that I laugh and then I know that is what Travis wanted me to do in the first place.
We will be having a memorial service for Travis on Wed. Aug. 27th, 2008 at 3:00pm at the LHCC in madras and who all that new him we would love if you were there.

As I said last posting please value every moment you have with the ones you love and make sure they know how you feel. You never know when it maybe the last time you get to say it.

Travis, I will always love and miss you. I always wanted a brother and now I know why I did not get one growing up..... it's because I was getting you! You will be forever missed and Never forgotton! I love you.

Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep.

As I lay here about to go to sleep for the day (remember I work nights) I am thinking about this weekend at work. What an amazing job I have. I can see life start and end all in a 12 hours shift. I can help heal a wounded heart and comfort a tearful family memeber all in the same room. I watch people go through the best and worst times of their lives on anygiven day at work; and yet I am still amazed at how God handles it all. There are things I don't understand and many that I am sure I will only understand when I can ask God myself in person. I do believe that God has a plan for us all and that everything happens for a reason even when we think there could not possible be one. I lay here today thanking God multiple times that my family is safe and that I get another day with my daughter and husband. That my Dad, Moms, grandparents are all safe and that we can be together, while others moarn the loss of one of their family member. I found myself tonight more judgmental than I ever thought I could be and as I walked to my car I was sick to my stomach to think that even though I had strong feeling about the situation I had no right to think and say the things that I said. ( While venting privately to a cor-worker) I had to remember that even though I was so upset over the situation that that person was still a person and a soul that needed Gods guidence as much or as I think about it more than anyone else. I found myself saying a prayer in the hospital parking lot to help him...... Something that I did not ever think I would do. Thank you God for opening my eyes. So I guess what I am saying is that please kiss those close to you and tell them that you love them every chance you get. Be safe and thank God for the little things in life that make living such a precious gift. I sure know that I will be doing these things more often that is for sure.